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| Tay this is a prayer someone forwarded to me a long time ago. I know it applies to where im at,Thought you might relate 
I come to this alter with no Isaac to bring
Just the desire to be loved and the hope for a ring
I’ve waited, I've worried, and I've failed to trust
So take from me this desire and teach me as you must
all alone before you, my heart i spill
with laughter and tears this empty vessel fill
I’m looking, Lord, no longer for a man
But now to you, and what you have planned
I am gifted and growing and I want to Serve you
Just show me where to go and who to serve as I seek
to follow through
And if alone you want me, for years to come
isolate and teach me what is to be done
I can’t fight you any longer, I am to weak
I am done with fool’s gold and real treasure i seek
I want you o Lord, to put a twinkle in my eye
I want you to be my focus and not any other guy
But even as i say this, part of me holds back
Help me to see that singleness is a blessing and not an attack
Lord, help me not to feel worthless, unblessed and alone
Help me to throw my cares at the foot of your throne
As you want me to wait, Lord please put a hold on my heart
Help me not to give it away to someone who will tear it apart
as i lay my desire down at your feet
Help me to be honest and my promise to keep
Help me in loneliness to focus on the cross
and when i feel left out, help me count it as loss
I don’t want to struggle, I am to tired to fight
Help me to keep on and do what is right
Remove from me this jealousy and replace it with joy
Fill my thoughts with you, O Lord, instead of a boy
On the alter of Sacrifice I place my desire
and I ask, Lord, right now that you’d burn it with fire
Please accept it, o Lord, for it is all i have to give
Help me to let go of this bondage and truly live
Take all of me, Lord, even when I’m opposed
Help me to trust in you, the one who always knows
On my knees i fall, with tears on my face
And I ask, Lord, that you’d meet me in this place
Altars are for bloodshed so, Lord, here’s my heart
Take it from me now, and grant me a new start
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Watching me like you never watch no one
Don't tell me that you didn't try and check out my bum
Cause I know that you did
Cause your friend told me that you liked it
Gave me those pearls and I thought they were ugly
Though you try to tell me that you never loved me
I know that you did
'Cause you said it and you wrote it down
Dancing at discos
Eating cheese on toast
Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy
But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around
So I learnt from you
Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do
So I learnt form you
Do do do da do do do do do da do do do do do da do
I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone
I can watch a sunset on my own
Sitting in restaurants
Thought we were so grown up
But I know now that we were not the people
That we turned out to be
Chatting on the phone
Can't take back those hours
But I won't regret
'Cause you can grow flowers
From where dirt used to be
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She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her
She swears there's no difference between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her
And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees makes her cry
She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She's giving boys what they want
Trying to act so nonchalant
Afraid to see that she's lost her direction
She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection
She's not a drama queen
She doesn't wanna feel this way
Only 17 and tired, yeah
She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She's just the way she is
But no one's told her that's okay
She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home | | |
| The longer I live the more respect and admiration I have for the strong individuals who have succeeded in spite of adversity. I think of the kind of person who perseveres even when the people who should be supporting them, are telling them it’s impossible. Who hears the word no, and thinks the word yes, and only becomes a stronger person and goes on to prove all their doubters wrong. I wish I could say that I am one of these elite. I’ve always thought I was a strong person, or rather lied to myself until I believed that I was. I think this was partially to try and insure my survival, as if believing that I’m strong would be enough to strengthen me. But today when I heard those doubtful words from someone close to me, as they assured me my situation was hopeless, I didn’t feel strengthened, or motivated to prove them wrong, rather I felt a sinking helplessness as I slipped into a melancholy acceptance of my inevitable fate. What’s even worse is that I’m aware of all of this and have thought a lot about it yet it changes nothing. Why can’t I just find it in me to make myself change the world, or at least my own little existence rather than accepting what everyone else says it has to be? | | |
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She wrestles between wake and sleeping
not knowing if the nightmares are
in her life or her dreaming | | |
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